I can’t believe two weeks have gone by. My what a busy little bee I’ve been. I’d continue on with a post about my adventures interning, but I’m afraid there wasn’t anything special about last week (I did a lot of filing!). Hopefully tomorrow will yield better results.
I’ve just started reading I Capture the Castle by Dodie Smith (Vintage Classics). I’m only five chapters in, but I’m loving it.
My favourite quote thus far (from page 65):
I’d rather marry both of them than die. But it has come to me, sitting here in the barn feeling very full of cold rice, that there is something revolting about the way girls’ minds so often jump to marriage long before they jump to love. And most of those minds are shut to what marriage really means.
I’m really enjoying the tone of the book and loving the narrator. That little gem of wisdom particularly stuck out at me as that’s how I feel most of the time. It still holds true all these years later. Women are so quick to jump into a serious relationship, so quick to give up their lives for someone. It’s all a bit sad really.
This whole line of thought ties in with a conversation I was having with a friend of mine. Basically, we’ve decided it’s no small wonder businesses are reluctant to hire or promote women after a certain stage of life. Too many are ready to forsake years of hard work and experience for family. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing to take care of your family– my mom quit her job to care for me and my sister, but when we got a bit older, she started on a new career, and I’m grateful I had such a lovely childhood– it just makes me think.
How do so many women– and men– think they need to be in a relationship to be happy or get what they want? I’ve seen bright young friends of mine give up university and move “closer to home” under the influence of a boyfriend. I’ve seen friends date boy-after-boy and girl-after-girl, not even taking a month to think “Who am I and what do I want?”
They all assume they want a relationship. But life is so much more than finding “the one”.
I, personally, want to do exciting things. I want to live in exciting places. And I want an exciting job.
And I’m beginning to realise that because of these desires, I don’t really have the time for a relationship. I’m completely happy for people who have got it right and can balance their career and personal life, and I commend you on your ability to do so.
Tonight, instead of pining over lost love and failed relationships, I’m going to be reading more of I Capture the Castle and watching Farscape… two things I probably wouldn’t do if I had a boyfriend to entertain at the same time.
What book are you reading this evening?